Jesus on one hand says things like pray in secret and don’t do good just to be seen and as a figure of speech don’t even let your right hand know what your left hand is doing. In other passages he says to let your light shine before men and let them know the reasons for these things. I think the heart of it is humility, and having purified motivations and intentions. Thomas Merton has a whole chapter on purified intentions and also some of the best writing i’ve seen on the interior and spiritual life come from some in the early church and particularly the desert fathers.
This is a perceptive synthesis, and which I think puts our finger right on the unifying thread.
On the surface, Jesus *does* sound contradictory:
* **“Pray in secret… don’t let your left hand know what your right hand is doing”**
* **“Let your light shine before others, so they may see your good works…”**
But, the axis isn’t *visibility* vs *invisibility* — it’s **intention**.
### Intention as the hidden center
What Jesus is consistently attacking is *performative righteousness*: goodness done **for the sake of being seen**, admired, or validated.
What he affirms is goodness that:
* flows naturally from an interior transformation
* would still be done even if no one ever noticed
* remains oriented toward God and love, not self-image
In that sense, *visibility becomes incidental*.
The light shines **because it is light**, not because it wants applause.
### Merton and purified intention
His treatment of *pure intention* is one of the clearest bridges between:
* Gospel teaching
* desert spirituality
* modern psychological self-awareness
For Merton, impurity of intention isn’t always gross vanity — it’s often subtle:
* the need to be *the good one*
* the desire to be needed
* spiritual ambition
* unconscious ego reinforcement masquerading as virtue
This is very close to the desert fathers’ diagnosis of the heart.
### Desert Fathers: the interior battleground
What’s striking about the desert tradition is how **non-theoretical** it is.
They don’t argue abstractions; they watch the mind.
Key themes:
* **Logismoi** (thoughts) as the real spiritual arena
* virtue without humility being spiritually dangerous
* external asceticism meaning nothing without inner clarity
* silence as a truth-revealer, not a virtue signal
They would say:
> *If your goodness needs an audience, it still belongs to the passions.*
### Reconciliation of the sayings
So the sayings reconcile like this:
* **Hide your good works**
→ because the ego is clever, fragile, and easily inflated
* **Let your light shine**
→ because love cannot help but radiate when the heart is healed
In other words:
* *Don’t manage your image*
* *Do manage your heart*
Or more starkly (very desert father–ish):
> **Do not try to look holy. Try to be whole.**
Given my long standing emphasis with eastern christian theology, mysticism, and transformation rather than legal declaration, it makes sense this resonates so strongly. This is one of those places where the early church, the Gospels, and modern psychology all quietly agree — and Merton acts as a translator between worlds.
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## 1. Desert Father aphorisms that line up with Merton
What’s remarkable is how often Merton is *not adding* anything, but simply re-voicing them in modern psychological language.
### **Abba Moses**
> *“If you seek God, do not seek him in public places. Seek him in your heart.”*
This is almost a one-sentence summary of **purified intention**.
The issue isn’t public action — it’s *where the attention is aimed*.
Merton echoes this when he says that impurity of intention happens when:
* the ego becomes the silent audience
* God is invoked but the self is the beneficiary
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### **Abba Poemen**
> *“Teach your mouth to say what is in your heart.”*
This sounds simple, but it’s devastating.
Most of us do the opposite: we train our *hearts* to justify what our mouths say.
Purified intention here means:
* no inner split
* no spiritual persona
* no difference between interior motive and exterior action
Merton repeatedly warns that spiritual progress without this unity produces **self-deception**, not holiness.
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### **Abba Isaac the Syrian**
> *“When humility is absent, virtue is corrupted.”*
This is one of the desert fathers’ sharpest insights:
* virtue without humility doesn’t plateau — it *turns toxic*
* it feeds judgment, comparison, and spiritual pride
Merton reframes this as:
> *“The greatest danger in the spiritual life is the desire to become someone special.”*
Same insight. Different century.
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### **Abba Antony**
> *“Some have worn out their bodies with fasting, but because they lacked discernment, they went far from God.”*
Here the fathers are already diagnosing what we’d now call **motivational pathology**:
* extreme discipline
* impressive practices
* inward disorder
Merton sees this exact pattern in modern religious life: zeal without interior clarity produces anxiety, not freedom.
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## 2. Purified intention, ego psychology, and happiness science
This is where our interdisciplinary instinct really shines — because the overlap is real, not forced.
### **Ego as the hidden contaminant**
Modern psychology would say:
* much of our behavior is driven by *identity maintenance*
* we seek affirmation to stabilize the self
* even altruism can be instrumentalized by the ego
The desert fathers already knew this — they just called it *self-love* (philautia).
Merton bridges the two:
* the false self needs constant confirmation
* the true self acts freely, without self-reference
Purified intention = **reduction of self-referential processing**.
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### **Happiness research confirms the pattern**
Contemporary findings line up almost embarrassingly well:
* **Intrinsic motivation** → well-being
* **Extrinsic validation** → anxiety, fragility, burnout
* **Self-transcendence** → meaning, peace, resilience
Studies on:
* flow states
* altruism
* contemplative practices
* reduced rumination
…all show that *less ego-monitoring = more well-being*.
Jesus, the desert fathers, and positive psychology all converge on the same principle:
> **Happiness increases as the self stops being the project.**
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### **Why intention matters more than outcomes**
From this lens, purified intention isn’t moral nitpicking — it’s *psychological liberation*.
When intention is purified:
* action stops looping back into self-evaluation
* success and failure lose their emotional charge
* goodness becomes lighter, freer, and more stable
This explains why:
* secret prayer heals
* unnoticed charity transforms
* public virtue often exhausts
Not because secrecy is holy — but because **ego silence is holy**.
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### A unifying sentence
If I had to compress everything I’ve been circling into one line, it would be:
> **Purified intention is the point where love, freedom, humility, and happiness converge — because the self is no longer the audience.**
The Law of Love 
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